The History of Crusaders

How did this begin:

A long time ago when I was just a regular random Youtube watcher and minor softcore troll, I loved to watch a channel called ReviewTechUSA. Those clickbait-waste-of-time videos of our old friend Rich were a good thing to watch while you're eating sandwiches with cheese and drinking coffee at the morning just before you rush into your annoying lovely job. Back then I watched those videos, played video games, worked in my job (for money, not out of love) and did all my regular everyday stuff that I missed so much... Back then I couldn't have imagine what I will be dragged into in a near future...

And then it happened.... the great and famous Cheddargrate Scandal of 2014

When Ricardo stole a $200 from Grand Obese Gouda and Riches comment sections were occupied with infamous $200 joke. I swear to gods it was hilarious!! I fucking loved it. Such a massive amounts of trolls completely over-filled comment sections of RTU with the most original and hilarious ways to remind stolen $200 dollars to Rich of ReviewTechUSA. Rich obviously wanted for that $200 story to be forgotten as soon as possible, but trolls are like sharks - they can smell a drop of blood (butthurt) from miles away and next thing you see is a whole bunch of trolls posting in your comment sections exactly that same kind of shit that you want everyone to forget! The joke remain alive for months and even today you can still see it in the comment sections of RTU sometimes.

And I was a part of it. I loved $200 joke. I loved all those comments. I loved all those trolls. And I always up-voted every single $200 comment that I saw. It was a pure epicness that shall never be forgotten.

At first we were just a bunch of random trolls who didn't know each other. But later one young and brave hero made a step further and united all the major trolls of RTU comment sections and created the G+ private community called "The Big Cheese Foundation". His name was Just gimme my $200 . And this is how The First Crusade have begun!

The First Crusade

It was the beginning for us all. We joined into a group. We weren't just random trolls anymore. We were a community united by a great cause - to return stolen $200 to Jakeem Johnson (aka Big Cheese). 

Our purpose were to spam $200 joke in RTU comment sections until insane level and up-vote each others comments so they would be visible and overflow all regular comments of Rich's fanbase. We still were just a softcore trolls back then. We shared a funny photoshopped pictures, some of us created videos exposing Rich and we basically just trolled and had fun together. We became a bunch of friends and the First Crusade is known as our best time together. Our magnificent past.. 

Even later when $200 joke became less popular we refused to let it die and for a long time we - the Big Cheese Crusaders alone didn't let the world to forget about stolen Big Cheeses $200. 

It was the most beautiful time, but unfortunately, soon a shadow of troubles covered our group. 

War demand sacrifices. One of the first soldiers that we lost was our elite member Rich's Exposed Final Form. He missed in action and nobody knows what happened to him until this day. But what happened later was even more terrible. Our most precious commander in chief Just gimme my $200 missed in action. Without him we became leaderless and disorganized group. At first we hoped he would return, but after some time we fell into a panic. Group became leaderless, but thanks to our Lord Big Cheesus one of our high rank officers Review My Cucumber USA second in command, took the role of the leader and led our group. But it wasn't the same. Loss of our original commander in chief had a terrible demoralizing effect on our group. We hoped  for Just gimme my $200 to return. We waited him for weeks.. and months.. but he didn't return...

Later war took even more heros. A lot of our veterans were killed in a battlefield of comment sections of RTU. We lost our soldiers. Review my ass USA, ReviewShrekUSA, Review Gulag USSR, Rich Villain, ExposedTech USA, ReviewTechsposedUSA - The CuCumbersome Thief, Osama Of ReviewBombsSaudiArabia, ReviewDevilUSA, SKIBBIDY BOP AND STEAL 200, Spartan Joe, The Big Cheese Justice League, IIDoratus, Feminist Association of Togetherness- LONG LIVE ANITA SARKEESIAN, Sex-E-Coco (the original one), ReviewCucumbersUSA, Captain CucumberUSA, ReviewTechKKK, Spaghettiinmybunghole, RichRollTechUSK, ReviewyourKidsPrivatesUSA, HeisenberdRU, Review Horse Cocks USA, ReviewYourChildren US-House Arrest, ReviewTingleUSA, Rich of Review Scam USA, Richie Boi of ReviewThaHoodUSA, TakesItUpTheAss Usa, Do you even gusto, The 200 Dollar Man and many others were killed or lost in the battlefields.. some of their bodies were never found. Others profile pages became into a dead remembrance of once a greatest soldiers of Big Cheese... They are still alive in our hearts, in the hearts of true Crusaders who remembers them until this day. And their souls are still here with us, silently supports us in our every step. We can still feel some of their presence here between us.

Crusaders national anthem for our dead heros. For those who died in the battles for Big Cheese's $200. May their souls find their peace.

But those who remained alive had to keep fighting. We refused to give up. After losing a lot of great soldiers and even commander in chief Just gimme my $200 himself we faced a crisis. It almost split our group and started a civil war... It was one of the hardest times in our history. But we refused to give up and we chose a new leader. Review My Cucumber USA officially became our new leader and he started a new G+ group - "Big Cheese our Lord and Savior". This was a major event in our history when we took a different direction. At first it led us into a lot of hardships, inside fights and debates as some of us considered this step (to open a new group and partially abandon the original one) as unethical, because a lot of us still had a hope in our hearts that commander in chief Just gimme my $200 will return one day...

But everything was resolved after some time and all those hard moments of our history couldn't break the spirit of our group after all. Instead it made us stronger and more united. We learned from our mistakes and most important - instead of giving up we chose to fight. And later it led us to a great success and glory.

But this is where another story begins. The story of The Second Crusade in our second infamous group known as "Big Cheese our Lord and Savior".

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(The history of second Crusade is coming soon................................................................... Hopefully)

How to not get banned on Google+

Trolling guide - How to stay unbanned on G+


Hello fellow trolls. I made this guide for you, so you could troll safe on Google+, with a minimum possibility to be banned.

So I've been trolling youtube and G+ for almost 7 years already and my account never been banned even once. How could I achieve this you may ask? I will explain all things you need to know in this guide. My English is quite bad, so be prepared.

There are just a 3 simple things you need to know:

1st : So, the first of all, you don't need to do anything special. Nothing. Just relax and troll. And enjoy! Google+ simply don't care about trolling, harassment and hate speech. Google+ has no man power to monitor such a big social network as G+ (and Youtube).

To get you banned someone needs to report your trolling posts. Google admins get hundreds of thousands of such reports every day. So they only checks those accounts who collected most of reports. In other words - to be banned you must be reported by hundreds, if not thousands of people. So unless you are some superfamous top end troll it's pretty much impossible to be banned on Google+.

So yes, basically you already can troll/harass and "express your opinion" without any fear to be banned for these things. Enjoy!



2nd : But it's another deal with posting pictures. Do not ever post porn/hentai/gore or any too sexual or too violent pictures on Google+. Because it will definitely get your account banned. It's proven - pictures of Porn/hentai/violence are the only thing that can actually get your account banned on G+. So be careful with pictures.


3rd :  You must know that there are a group of deeply butthurt pro-censorship people on Google+. They are not trolls, but they have no life and they spends 24/7 on the internet. Their sole purpose is to report all trolling posts and harassment and limit your freedom of speech as much as possible. They sitting in their dark room for days and nights while searching for trolls and other people who having fun on the internet and after they find them they reporting them and spending incredible amounts of their miserable lifetime to do everything it takes to get your account banned. Yes, just to get your account banned (a new account may be made in a matter of 3 minutes)...

And so the best options to avoid these insane people is to block them. Yes, just to block them! If you blocked them they won't be able to see your posts anymore, which means they won't be able to report you!

Though it comes with the price - if you report them, you won't be able to attack them and increase their never-ending butthurt which cannot be healed. By blocking them you will lose your capability to harass them, because after you block them they probably won't see your posts as well.

There was a lot of trolls who refused to block these people just to be able to harass them.



So now I will provide you a list of people that you should block. Keep in mind that most of them are insane. 



Dr Michael Nuccitelli the Nutella man aka Nutella


This pedophile looking faggot is known as Michael Nuccitelli aka Nutella. One of the major leaders of all anti-troll groups (groups names won't be given to not promote this cancer of the free internet and freedom of speech).
Source of his infinite butthurt is yet unknown, but this man will definitely report you whenever he has a chance. Block him for your own sake.


CAIN

The same faggot Nuccitelli behind another account. Block immediately for your own safety.




ṤⱧǠ ᴆŐƜ

Okay, this one usually don't waste his time reporting trolls, but you should still block him. Not because he's dangerous (because he isn't), but because he is a major faggot, criminal, incompetent hacker, drug user and thief who stole his logo from innocent DeviantArt user. Also he was arrested for having sex in public place. For a fact this faggot also known as Todd Knisely, should be blocked by every single existing internet user. He and all his bullshit should be isolated from any access. Block for your own sake.

AlphaTina Connelly

Now, not much is known about her, but as much as is known she is insane, paranoid and hysterical pro-censorship fighter who sees child abuse and harassment everywhere. She believes that children are being bullied everywhere, but the most harsh and dangerous place for them to be is obviously - the Internet. No, not school, not streets, not home, not abusive family, not gym, not basketball court, but obviously - the internet is the place where they can be harmed most. Because internet is full of stalkers, psychopaths, trolls, demons, zombies, evil spirits and mass murderers who would kill children through PC screen. She dedicated all her miserable life for spreading this paranoia of her own across the internet and she will do everything to inflict this paranoia to you too! Also she won't hesitate to report you anytime, so just block her "like a coward" and enjoy trolling as well as freedom of speech!

ANA SOLANA



Now, I have no idea who is this one, I never seen her before, but she is one of them. So be sure to block this annoyance out of your sight.

EDITED

She is on our side now. Unblock her! This cute, hot and beautiful Italian girl is now a part of our crew. We must love her from now on. She's our friend!





Brian -White Knight- Williams aka Briana the virgin

And look what we have here! Oh boy...

So where to even begin... This faggot is a 40 year old virgin who spends 24/7 inside his dark room fighting internet trolls. As you can see from his 'nickname' his true gender is unknown. ...It can be either he, she, transgender, transvestite or even hermaphrodite (not that it matters since it never had any sexual relationships anyway).
He... She is also known for being a major drama-queen and backstabber. She trashtalked her own "guildmate" ShadowFag behind his back. She also hijacked Anti-Troll Task Force G+ community, by betraying and backstabbing communities creator and former owner Penitent Tangent.

His.. Her.. I mean It's hobby is to dox people on the internet. Since it has no life anyway, it spends sleepless nights and weeks doing research of some troll who is behind a bunch of VPNs. And he fails to dox them miserably every time. Once it even got it's own ass doxxed in the process.

I could write a whole fucking textwall about this major 40 year old manchild, but he didn't deserve so much attention. Lets leave him rot in his dark lonely room. Be sure to block, so this white wraith of the internet will never find it's peace...


Dark Mystery

Now this "Dark Mystery" is definitely very dark, since nothing is known about this faggot who claims to be a part of Anonymous, but he was seen in pro-censorship groups so you better block him.





Smile ♪

Now this cute blonde with an equally cute kitten is not malicious and not dangerous at all. While she didn't deserve to be included in this "list of honor", I still must give you a warning. She may report your account, so you better block her.





Taysha Arquette


She is irrelevant. But still a member of pro-censorship groups. Block for your own safety.





sulobaiD sueviN (somunnA)




This one is quite irrelevant shitty faggot with a dick in his mouth. He talks a lot, but have no balls and no competence to take any action. Claims to be Anonymous so trolls would be scared, but don't fall for this bullshit. He's nothing. Just block this irrelevant pro-censorship faggotry flee.



Sandec W

Oh boy, now what do we have here...

Another insane, paranoid, hysterical pro-censorship bitch full of hate for trolls and for the rest of the world. Like an evil wraith she hates everything what her never-ending paranoia indicates as a threat. Long time ago somebody inflicted a never ending butthurt to her and so she will not stop until everything is censored.

I am not familiar with her and I never encountered her, but here's what people has to say about her:

"Sandec W (Real name, Ac D) is just like Nutella. That dumb bitch have created at least 10 accounts for snooping and reporting, and I don't believe she'll give up on hunting throlls anytime soon." - Alexander.


Please block her for your own safety.


Eye Predator Ltd


Now this is another sad no lifer who dedicated all his miserable life to only one hobby - reporting people on G+. Really sad creature. I almost feel pity for him (her?). Someday he will die virgin and all alone. Never had friends, never had life, only one never-ending butthurt caused by trolls long time ago. Report button is all he ever had in his life :(

Block him.


RhinoWarrior Pinkie Pie


First I must say that she didn't deserve to be included in this list. She is one of the leaders of pro-censorship groups, but only one who we have no problems with.

Not aggressive unless provoked. Usually she don't waste her time reporting trolls, but doing more relevant things like reporting/hunting pedophiles. Also she supports endangered animals and doing other good stuff, which cannot be related with censorship. Which means she is not our target.

But don't judge a book by its cover - she IS one of the leaders of pro-censorship groups, which means she won't hesitate to report you if she sees you trolling the internets. So if you are intended to troll internets hard, you should consider possibility to block her just for your own safety (and turn on your VPN so her buddy couldn't hack you)

Samantha Dalena

An old fuckbuddy of an old certain well known troll. Once she got butthurted and ran to the pro-censorship side. She is also totally harmless, because one certain troll has a lot of embarrassing things to tell about her. Also rumors says that certain troll possess a very embarrassing photos of her in his folder. And those photos are ready to be released in the wide internets at any moment like a nuclear weapon if she does anything stupid. So she is under control and should remain harmless, which means she isn't worth to be our target as she isn't worth our precious time.

But belonging to pro-censorship groups makes her relatively dangerous so it's always better to block her.


Here is the list of main members and leaders of those pro-censorship groups. There are more of them, but I am physically unable to list them all as it would take too many hours of my life. Ones listed in this list are the most active ones, so if you block them you most likely won't be noticed by their less active members anyway and so you will be safe enough. These are the main core that needs to be blocked.


*All the information about listed people is not a fact, but my personal opinion, which I have a right to express. And this right of freedom of speech is protected by the laws of my country.* 

*If you found this opinion offensive or you don't like it for some reason, then this is totally your own problem and you should shove all your complaints up to your own ass.*


So, I hope this information will help you stay on Google+ unbanned. Good luck and happy trolling, my friend!



Special thanks to Review Drone USA for providing me useful information.

"Can somebody explain what this $200 thing is all about?"

Hello friends. I noticed that a lot of you asking about $200 thing in ReviewTechUSA's comment sections. So I will try my best to explain what this $200 thing is all about. My english is very bad and broken so be prepared for a lot of grammatical mistakes and other shit to happen. But I will try my best to explain and answer all your questions about Cheddargrate Scandal of 2014.


How did this begin:

In a year 2014 a white obese youtuber Rich of ReviewTechUSA made a deal with some small minor youtuber Big Cheese. Big Cheese was also obese youtuber, but unlike Rich, he was not white, but black. well I mean afroamerican so called; a specie of another race; once a slave. So Cheese offered to give his PC to Rich of ReviewTechUSA for 6 months of advertising his channel and mere $200. So they both agreed to this deal and Cheese sent his PC to Rich and Rich started to advertise Big Cheese's channel in the end of his videos.

Everything went nicely at first. Rich advertised Cheese's channel at the end of his videos as agreed (most of us obviously skipped that crap and nobody really cared about some minor youtube channel advertised at the end of the video) for some time. But things went bad when Big Cheese asked to pay him his $200 which he rightfully deserved. And then Rich of ReviewTechUSA shown his true greedy face. He refused to pay and offered to send back Cheese's PC to Big Cheese. But Big Cheese obviously wasn't happy about that and demanded his hard earned $200. and this is how Cheddargrate Scandal of 2014 happened. Both obese youtubers started to fight through the facebook for $200 which they both wanted badly. Big Cheese even said that his wife was sick, obviously to dramatize the situation even more. Later drama went all over the youtube. They published a lot of dramatic videos exposing each other, one of them was "Rich of ReviewTechUSA Unprofessional Businessman w/ Evidence" followed by even more drama video, such as "apology" video, "apology accepted" video and later all these videos been deleted, because both obese youtubers probably realized that they look like two dumb overdramatic bitches fighting for a cock, so they just destroyed all the evidence and hoped that peoples will forget all this drama shit. Unfortunately, peoples did not forget. Peoples still remember it and even worse - reminding all this shit, that ended months ago, in the comment sections of every video of  Rich of ReviewTechUSA. The amount of trolls are huge, until the point where Big Cheese $200 comments overwhelms regular comments, and looks like they're not going to stop anytime soon...

FAQ:

Who the hell is Big Cheese anyway?

A black obese small youtuber who makes videos about gaming and stuff. Of course you don't know him, since he has only around 10 000 subscribers... so lets make him more popular by advertising his channel.


BLACK?!! DID YOU SAID BLACK?!! YOU'RE A RACIST PIG HEAVENSTROLL BLADEMASTER!!!

Calm down, I m not a racist pig. It wasn't an insult, it was just a reference to a skin color. Not really even black, my apologies, rather brown or dark brown. It is not an insult nor racism just to call white things white and brown things brown. its more like a fact and it's not meant to insult anyone.

You want to know who is truly a racist? here you go:

Credit to +Review My Cucumber USA for this picture

FAQ:

But why they never says "Big Cheese" in the comments? why they're calling him Massive Mozzarella, Large amount of  solidified milk, Big Black Cheddar, Swiss Gouda or some other stupid alternative name?

This phenomenon is known as "The Filter Myth". Once Rich of ReviewTechUSA became butthurted because of BC$200 comments until the point that he wanted to disable comments in his videos. But instead he installed a filter that was supposed to stop from publishing comments with certain keywords, such as "Big Cheese" and "$200". Unfortunately, this didn't end well for Rich as well. Knowing the fact that trolls possess a very high intelligence, it wasn't hard for them to trick that shitty filter of Rich. So to avoid that shitty filter of Rich, trolls came up with a very creative ways to name the subject, such as Massive Mozzarella, Swiss Gouda, Big Cheddar, HE WHO SHOULD NOT BE NAMED, Obese Gorgonzola, Mammoth Gouda, Magnus Caseus, Queso Grande, Large quantity of solidified milk, Large quantity of solidified cows cum, Fatass Parmesan, Big Swiss, Gib Eseehc, B!g Ch33ze, ビッグチーズ, and many others...

Also they changed $200 with other currencies (for example 24 280.33 Japanese yen which is equal to 200 USD (2015 03 11)).

But what is the reason for all of this?

Well, everyone has his own reasons, my friend. Like "to not let a good joke die", "to not let meme die", "to remind evil Rich about what he did to Big Black Cheddar", "to expose Rich", "for fun", "to annoy Rich", "to annoy Rich's viewers/fanbase", "to annoy somebody/anybody", "to be an asshole", "to avenge Big Cheese", "to remind Cheddargrate Scandal of 2014", "to not let drama die", "to cause even more drama" or just for the heck of it...

Okay, but when all this trolling going to stop? it was going on for months!

As far as we currently know - never. We will never forget Big Cheese's $200.

What is this all has to do with cucumbers?

Cucumber is a favorite Rich's sex toy. This video will explain it all better than entire paragraph of text.

But what kind of shithole blog is this??? I see incest stories about you fucking your own sister! just what the fuck, man?? you're fucking sick!!

Irrelevant! Please stay on topic!!

Is this truth that there are peoples dedicated to spam Rich's comment sections?

Rumors says that there are peoples who calls themselves "Big Cheese Crusaders". Rumors says that they will never forget Cheddargrate Scandal. they spam Rich's comment sections with BC$200 comments and thumbs up each others comments so they would be visible and so nobody would forget Rich's crime. Their identities are highly classified. But this is nothing more than just a rumors, you shouldn't believe in such a thing.

Is that truth that there are entire communities on Google+ dedicated to BC$200 comments?

I doubt it. I don't know where you heard or read these conspiracy theories, but you shouldn't believe in such a thing. I mean who would go through so much troubles to create entire G+ community just to spam somebody's comment sections? really? a G+ community dedicated to spam BC$200 comments?? No way, there's no such a thing. Who would do something like that...

Is that truth that other gaming channels also been affected with BC$200 comments?

Yes. Other channels also became victims of BC$200 comments. Boogie2988, AngryJoeShow, IGN, Machinima and other major gaming channels also been attacked.

Is that truth that all this wouldn't have to happen if Rich payed $200 to Big Cheese?

Yes. It is the truth. All this wouldn't have to happen if only Rich payed 146 Republic Credits to a honest obese hard working man...  Unerected.

I want to spam BC$200 comments too. How do I begin? 

Well, welcome to the club! You can either spam these comments by yourself, or you can join one of these G+ groups: 

Group 1

Group 2

AHA!! SO THERE ARE G+ COMMUNITIES DEDICATED TO SPAM BC$200 COMMENTS!! YOU'RE A LIAR HEAVENSTROLL BLADEMASTER!!!!!

Ah... Well.....  N-No... I.. I just....

I am sick of BC$200 comments! when will Rich going to disable his comments?

Never. Want it or not you WILL enjoy these comments.

I think trolls who spam BC$200 comments are bunch of nolife virgins who have nothing better to do with their miserable life. I do not support you guys, I think you all are stupid, I think you should stop and fuck you guys! I hope you all will die! Have a good one.

Well, I must admit that one day we all going to die. But BC$200 comments will be remembered and continued generation by generation and will never die. Anyway, your butthurt cannot stop us.

So will Big Cheese get his money back?

We're doing everything we can, but I must admit... not likely. It is extremely hard to take away Cheese's hard earned moneys from someone's like Rich grasp. He is one big greedy lucky bastard...

I noticed that $200 from my wallet is missing! Do you think Rich has something to do with this?

Yes. He most likely has something to do with this...

Credit to Naruto Uzumaki for this picture.

So we all need to hate Rich?

Not necessary. Its not like we actually hate him. Most of us are his subscribers and we like his videos. We are driven not by hate, but by sense of justice. You don't have to hate Rich, but be sure to always leave a BC$200 comment in his videos just for the heck of it.

How can I regrow my penis? I lost it in the car accident last Sunday. 

You cannot.

So, I hope I answered all your questions. If you have any more questions, you can send them to me and I'll do my best to answer all your questions. And again, sorry for my broken, bad, first grader's level English. 

Now here's some videos you should see:

Be sure to rate, comment, favorite and subscribe and as always thank you for supporting BC$200 trolls. Have a good one.

A problems with my pussy

"The problems with my pussy started a few years ago. I always noticed that when I done my homeworks in my room in silence, some noises came out from my pussy. Later at nights I started to hear a calm beautiful melody. When I tried to listen where it came from I realized that that silent music have been coming from my pussy. and it repeated every night. Once in a while when I've been in silence I often heard that silent beautiful music coming out from my pussy. later things became even more awkward. One night when I heard that melody again, I decided to check my pussy and when I looked at it.. I was amazed.. A LIGHT was coming out from my vagina. Light often went through my panties and lightened floor when I went into a toilet at night. And that music doesn't stop...  so please tel me WTF? what the honest fuck is going on  in my pussy? anybody knows?"

            written by:  Mitera4qua  

My romance with my english teacher

I will tell you about one even in my life long time ago.

 

Well I fell in love with an older woman. She was like 6 years older then me. so I started to talk with her and spend my time with her. I bough her flowers and candies and presents. but there was a great problem. she was married at that time. but oh well, not a big deal since her husband worked in another country at that time. so to make a long story short, I was able to get into close friendship with her. and not too long time after that I was able to take over her. she started to cheat on her husband with me. since her husband was non attractive looser with glasses (rather scopes) and wasn't good in a bed. so we enjoyed our relationships for like a month. and then her husband returned so she asked me to leave her alone and never talk with anyone about what happened between us. and yes she still was my english teacher at that time (that explains why my english is so bad. because I more often fucked my teacher instead of studying, but oh well..). so we had to pretend that nothing happened between us. she quit me after her husband returned from Italy. but yet I really loved her... and soon it was summer vacation. 3 monts passed. I haven't seen her for all those 3 long months. I really missed her. when studies finally begun again I was very happy because I though I will be able to see my beloved english teacher again. but then I heard a rummor that she's pregnant. and I thought "oh shit who did trashed my beloved teacher like that?! who dared?!". I talked with her one day after school. she asked me to forget about what happened between us back then and she said that her husband made her pregnant. that looser with scopes...

 

well I decided to end that shit. I didn't wanted pregnant women. like who would want to love trashed female? eww.. all love in my heart for her suddenly vanished. vaporized. disapeared.

 

so I never wanted to see her anymore. but then another shit happened. another day her husband, who was my chemistry teacher heard those nasty rummors about my little romance with his wife! he became very very angry and very dangerous! one day he couldn't controll himself and attacked me in a school corridor! he beated me with fists, he was mad and I had to defend myself somehow! he was bigger than me and he punched me and kicked me and acted like hes mad! so by defending myself I kicked him really hard into his balls. then he fell and started to shake and white foam came out of his mouth. but just to be sure he won't attack me again I stomped him like 10 times and additionally jumped on his head to make sure he won't attack me anymore. you know, it was all self defence. then ambulance arrived and took him into a hospital.

 

after this terrible event a great scandal begun. this story became public. I was kicked out from school, my chemistry teacher lost his job and balls (his crushed balls were surgicaly removed from his body) and my pregnant english teacher commited suicide for some reason.

 

and so now after so many years I feel.. something like guilt deep in my heart.. like it was somehow my fault. I know this is silly, but sometimes I m thinking that maybe if I didn't interrupted between them maybe it wouldn't have ended like this... I know its stupid to blame myself but I do regret it for some reason. I feel like they would have been ok if not me. but oh well, sometimes its happening, not like I could do something about that. so I m just trying my best to not blame myself... my poor english teacher, why did she killed herself.. she was such a beauty...

 

so this is my biggest regret of my life.

Suicide

It is very hard to understand the reason why a human being would choose to disapear by his own will. Why would he or she walks away from life just like this? And leaves his/her family and friends suffering...

 

A week ago my old friend who I knew for decades since our childhood choosed to end his own life.

 

He turned on his cars engine in a closed garage without proper ventilation system. Half an hour passed and he fell to sleep. And he never woke up anymore...

 

He left a letter. I never got a chance to see what was written in that letter... A tragedy for all his family and friends. Everyone who knew him can't understand why did he done such a thing.. He always been a happy person, filled with the joy of life. At least everyone remembers him this way..

His mother and father and his brother are still in shock. This sunday I was in his funeral...

Everybody cried. Since he was my friend since our childhood I wonder what should I do? Should I pretend to be sad or something? should I pretend that I care and try my best to cry as everybody else? Because I m not sure what should I do since its not like I'd give a single fuck you know...

my sad story

hey I'll tell you my really sad story about how my parents abused me:

so I had a lovely big sister. she was 3 years older than me. very beautiful. she allways took care of me when I was nothing more than a small stupid child. I loved her very much. LIKE REALLY MUCH. all my childhood we been together. but later it started to change. as I grow bigger and bigger I started to take care of my beloved sister, helping her with various things. as I was told by father that I am a man and man must take care of his sister as a man. so I allways helped my sister with everything and treated her nicely. but sudenly she started to change! her chest.. started to grow bigger. and her ass.. her body transformed. and time to time after seeing her I started to feel something weird in my pants. something hard.. I couldn't understand it back then... 

when we were small we used to sleep together because I often got nightmares. so she allowed me to sleep in her bed with her. but after she turned 14 she didn't allowed me to sleep with her anymore. but one night when I was 12 and she was 15 I got a terrible nightmare and came to her room and asked if I can sleep with her. I was scared and I almost cryed. so she agreed. and we slept together. and that night.. I started to grab her while she slept. I really was currious about her female body. I touched her intimate places. and then sudenly she woke up with my fingers in her vagina.. she said "what are you doing!?" and looked at me with weird look in her face.. then I kissed her in the lips. I started to kiss her. a lot. we kissed and then we started to grab each other and this was our first time when we had sex. first, but not the last. we started to sleep (sex) together every night. we enjoyed each other... we loved each other. that was most amazing nights in my life...

But then a great disaster happened. our PARENTS FIND OUT our secret. they cough us together... they screamed and shouted at us.. later they talked with us.. we've been forced to go to psychologists after that. they said it isn't normal for us to love each other that way. but I still loved my sister more than anything in the world... 
I told to my parents that they cannot change it, I refused to stop loving my sister. so they separated us... they sent my sister to live with our uncle and his wife in another town which was in another side of my country. like 300km away.. they said she will study in better school there and it's for her own good. but the truth was that they just brutally separated us like that. I havent seen my sister for years. it was so hard. I was thinking about her everyday. life became so empty and meaningless. I was so lonely.. after almost a year separated she came back home for christmas. I though we will be together again at least for that short christmas week.. but she said that our relationships was a mistake and that we shouldn't have done that... and then she left again.. I didn't wanted to live anymore. I kept wondering why do our parents acting so cruel with us. life was so dark.. I kept thinking about commiting suicide.

that was like 7 years of hell. but now I m independant grown up man and parents cannot abuse me like that anymore. I m meeting with my sister a lot and our relationships are just fine. my parents bitching about it and allways warning us not to do incestical stuff. but its not their business anymore.

so thats my story. I tried to make it short so many details left aside, but I guess you got the main point.