some of my regrets are too sad to be written. but I'll write one of them.
my story is long, sad and written in shitty english so be prepared.
It was a beautiful winter full of snow. a white beautiful time 3 days before christmas. I was all about christmas mood and it was already long holidays for me. outside my warm home was very cold those days. so one beautiful morning I decided to go for a walk with my beloved dog. I went to the most beautiful place in my area. a frozen lake near the forest. it was so white snowy and beautiful but so cold but my dogy was so happy and energetic. he loved to walk with me in the nature. and he was running all over that frozen lake full of the joy of life and I was just standing there and remembering my old beautiful times. and then it happened. the little boy apeared on that lake and my dog (which is not small) noticed him and started to run into him. I though "oh shit!" and started to call my dog to come back. my dog is not argesive but still if he somehow bite that boy or something I'd be in trouble. but my dog didn't listen to me and didn't came back. and he started to play with that boy, sniffing him and I got angry cause that dick didn't listened to me and started to run towards him. and while I was running towards him OH GODS the ice broke and both my dog and that little boy fell into the freezing water! and then adrenaline flooded all my body and minds! I ran there and tryed to get my dog out of that freezing water but I was too close to the edge and ice broke again and I myself fell into the water! water was freezing as fuck! and so the first thing I did in that freezing water was grabbing my dog and pushing him on ice (he wasn't too heavy so ice didin't broke while I did it). and then I grabbed the edge of ice to not drown myself. edge of ice that I hold broke a few times but pretty fast I find a place where ice was strong enough for me to climb on it. and thanks Gods and my good physical condition I was able to climb on that ice and save my skin! and then after I got my ass on ice I noticed that woman screaming the name of that boy that was still in the water. that was his mother. at that time while I was in shock I fucking forgot that was someone else besides me and my dog in that freezing water! then I didint know what to do anymore..
that boy was holding on edge of ice but unable to climb up. he was screaming for his mother to help but she couldn't get close to him as ice was clearly weak in that area. I knew that if I go near the edge ice will broke again. I was all freezed and couldn't even think of what will happen if I fall into that water again. I would die in second try. so the only idea that came into my mind was to call for help (it was bad idea ofcource but only one that came to my mind) so I tryed to take my phone out of my pocket but my fingers was so freezed that I couldn't do it and when I finally did I saw that my phone doesn't work as it was in water for that whole long freezing minute! then I started to shout to that woman to call help with her phone but she was all in a fucking panic and only screamed and cryed and didin't hear me. and so while I was shouting her to call help that little boy freezed and drown in my eyes. that was one of the most terrible things I saw in my life...
after that I was in hospital for all the christmas week as I catched a terrible cold. I was thinking the whole time about that terrible event. could I saved that boy as well? should I saved him instead of my dog?(nah.. my lovely pet was first priority after all) or would I died myself if I'd tryed to save him as well while in water? gods knows.. but I regret I couldn't save him.
also there was some peoples and even my friends in my town who after hearing this story condemned me for saving dog instead of that little boy (he was like 6 years old). but this story happened like 8 years ago and now almost nobody remembers it. except me. I'll remember it for all my life. also I heard that that mother who saw her children drown in her eyes later ended up in psychoteraphy hospital as she almost went out of her right mind.
thats one of events I regret. ONE of events I regret, but not the most regreted one..
also my dogy is still alive with me and we still going for walks and 10 miles runs. he's my beloved friend. in that situation I forgot almost everything in the world and only thing in my mind was how to save my dog. I do not regret saving him instead of that boy, but I do regret that I didn't tryed to save that boy as well.
so that's my sad story. thanks for listening.
